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20SB Blog Swap: Devilish Delish

Today, there is no “Ask a Geeky Girl,” because I am participating in the Twenty-Something Bloggers’ Blog Swap. I have less than a year as a twenty-something, so I figured I should participate while I can (sob!).

Today’s post comes courtesy of DevilishDelish. Please give her some love. And check out her blog to see my post. I think it’s a good one!

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I have been sitting here for hours trying to think of what to write about here.  Almost nothing seemed worthy of my words, and the few things that did seemed too personal.  I was afraid to write.  But the wonderful Charles at ARTCRANK reminded me that the things worth writing about are the ones that make us uncomfortable. the things that scare us. write something you’re afraid of sharing.” And instantly I knew what I needed to write.

I told myself that 2010 was going to be about overcoming fear. I told Paul that I was going to overcome my fear of water.  I said I was going to overcome my fear of loneliness and go a year without a relationship.  I was going to give up my fear of failure and leave this town and start something new (and find a new job).  I told myself I was going to give up fear in 2010.

Sure, I made progress in some areas.  I spent a majority of the year single and grew to love the independence.  Although I did not leave my small town, I did move in with some amazing roommates who support me and add joy to my life.  And even though I did not quit my full-time job, I started exploring my passions on the side, working with an amazing political campaign, doing freelance makeup work, and picking up a part time job as a beauty advisor with Estee Lauder.
It is a start, but I told myself that I was going to give up fear.  And I didn’t.  I still let fear consume me, and I am ending this year in much the same fashion I started it; afraid of living life.

I WILL overcome my fear of water.  I WILL quit my dead-end full-time job.  I WILL allow myself to be happy alone, but allow myself to love when the right person comes along. But this time I mean it!  In 2011, I WILL give up fear.  I will quit putting off the simple changes needed to fully enjoy life.

But the biggest fear that I WILL overcome? The Wheel.

I have spent my life paralyzed by fear and anxiety in regards to many things that are necessities for many people.  One of these is the wheel.  I have spent my life terrified of driving. I cannot get behind the wheel of a vehicle without a panic attack.  I, at 23, still do not drive.

But no more.  In 2011, I WILL overcome my fear of driving.

You are reading it here first.  I will give up fear.  I will start living life.  And I will drive.

As Charles told me, the things worth writing about are the ones that make us uncomfortable. the things that scare us. write something you’re afraid of sharing.” What is something that you are afraid of?  What is something that makes you uncomfortable; that scares you?  What is a fear that you will overcome in 2011?

5 comments to 20SB Blog Swap: Devilish Delish

  • You live in Boston….. of course you’re afraid to drive!! Awesome city and a crazy, messed-up system of streets. Never been more lost before in my life!! No doubt if I lived there I would only take the subway and never drive either! lol

  • I’m actually not sure where DevilishDelish lives. But, yeah, there’s a reason I didn’t get my own license until I was 18. :p

  • Actually, I live in Minnesota. I wish I lived in Boston! 🙂

  • What a great post! Courage is not the absence of fear, it’s acting in spite of it. There are lots of great acronyms and sayings that help while you’re working on the fear issues. One of my favorites tells me that there are two ways to deal with fear: Face Everything And Recover or F**k Everything And Run.

    I don’t even know you, but from the strength of your post, I believe you can achieve this goal. Good for you!

  • Mary, you rock! 😀

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