{"id":1753,"date":"2009-12-08T15:42:58","date_gmt":"2009-12-08T20:42:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.hoperoth.com\/blog\/?p=1753"},"modified":"2009-12-08T15:42:58","modified_gmt":"2009-12-08T20:42:58","slug":"a-moment-of-tranquility","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.hoperoth.com\/blog\/a-moment-of-tranquility\/","title":{"rendered":"A Moment of Tranquility"},"content":{"rendered":"

Note: The following post contains mushiness in all of \u00a0its mushiest mushy glory. It will also shatter all of your illusions that Kristian and I sleep in twin beds all Hollywood in the 1930s style. You have been duly warned.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

This past year, I have been a bad sleeper. Such a bad sleeper, I make colicky babies look like Rip Van Winkle. I sleep with an eye-mask, a la Holly Golightly. I keep earplugs on my nightstand “just in case.” I avoid caffeine in all of its forms. I exercise religiously. I try to never exercise within two hours of when I plan to go to bed. I have attempted (unsuccessfully) to subliminally convince our neighbor to get rid of his motorcycle<\/a>.<\/p>\n

And yet? I often find myself staring at my alarm clock, willing myself to slumber. Listening to Kristian snore and trying really, really hard not to mentally calculate the maximum number of hours of sleep that I could get if I would just fall asleep now, now<\/em>, nownownow OMG please, right now<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Yes, I am aware that it is counterproductive to do any alarm clock staring, maximum sleepage calculating.<\/p>\n

I never said I was perfect.<\/p>\n

What I’ve taken to doing this year is to take all of that mental energy that would otherwise be spent in agonizing and steer it towards appreciating. Because I am a total bowl of mush (all we need is a comb, a brush, an old lady whispering hush and we could have ourselves a Goodnight Moon), I often find myself appreciating Kristian. And practicing deep breathing. But, mostly, appreciating Kristian.<\/p>\n

I remind myself how lucky I am to by lying in bed next to someone that I love so completely. Someone who loves me completely. Someone who treats me better than I could ever have imagined (or probably deserve). Because I am a total drama queen, I often remind myself about the fragility of life. That there is no guarantee that we will be lying like this tomorrow night. Sure, it’s a little macabre. But it’s a good reminder to appreciate things when you have them. To savor those precious moments.<\/p>\n

To not smother your boyfriend with a pillow to get him to stop snoring.<\/p>\n

That, my friends, was my best moment of peace in 2009<\/a>. And the best part about it was that it happened almost every night. Except for the nights were I was sleeping. And those were pretty sweet, too.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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