… Here is your\u00a0schadenfreude.\u00a0<\/p>\n
If you are not so into schadenfreude, I should warn you that this post contains copious amounts of whining.<\/p>\n
I split my favorite jeans on Sunday. And I’m not talking the “oops, I got stuck on something and they ripped, tee hee” kind of splitting. No, I sat down and I heard that horrible ripping sound and the inside of my pant leg came busting open like a bat out of hell. I’m guessing that this has happened to a lot of people. The assault on your senses of that horrible ripping sound. The shame of outgrowing your pants. The fear that someone will see your skin poking through the large hole that you just created. The frustration of ruining your most expensive (and favorite!) pair of jeans.<\/p>\n
I suppose that this is good motivation for me. I’ve been terrible about eating junk lately. Which is compounded by the fact that I still can’t run. The weather has been terrible this past week, which just makes me crave sweets even more than usual. I could justify it all by saying that it wasn’t a problem, because hey! my clothes all still fit. Now, when I contemplate walking over to the bookstore and buying chocolate, I remember that horrible feeling of my pants splitting open and I get a glass of water instead.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Why did it have to be that particular pair of jeans? They were Lucky Jeans and they were super cute. They cost me $108 and that is way more than I have ever spent on a pair of pants. They were my reward for losing so much weight last time around. And that is just salt in the wound.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I hate that we, as a society have to deal with the mixed messages of “Eat all this processed crap full of HFCS” and “Your life is not worth living if you’re larger than a size 4.” Our culture provides us with an arsenal of methods to fat ourselves to death and then it vilifies us for it. There’s some sort of weird disconnect going on here and I must admit that I’m not immune to it. Are any of us, really? I know that I’m generally happier when I avoid sugar and processed food. I know that my back doesn’t hurt when I’m at a healthy weight. I also know that, at a healthy weight, I probably don’t meet a lot of people’s expectations in terms of “girl who would look good in a bikini.” And that it’s all too easy to get discouraged and make a trip to the bookstore for a package of peanut butter M&Ms.\u00a0<\/p>\n
I’m also fully aware that I complain an awful lot about being a weight that probably half of America would kill to be at. I have to remind myself constantly that I’m not actually obese. I just weigh more than I would like to. I’m pretty sure that I would feel a lot better in terms of my knee and my back if I lost about ten pounds. And, yeah, I would like to have the confidence to wear a bikini this Summer. But, I’m on the upper end of a healthy weight and there should be no shame in that. Note, I said “should be” and not “isn’t any.”<\/p>\n
Kristian saw my jeans in the trash and convinced me to try and salvage them. But, I think that I need to let them go.<\/p>\n
And promise myself a new pair for when I get back into my healthier eating habits.<\/p>\n
And, erm, hopefully lose some weight.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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